Epiphany

Definition one, a sudden moment of insight or a revelation.

I think I may have mentioned in my last post that I had a moment while working out in the shed. Like I realised some things, things that never really occurred to me until just then while I was out there. Then they form the hook of my sad story.

I'm not even really sure what I was meant to be posting about in particular. I've only gotten an hour or two of sleep since yesterday so maybe I'm a bit out of it even though I feel ok. I just don't know where my train of thought has gone or what my purpose was meant to be...

I don't know.

I question things now, and I don't like the answers that I find. The reality of it all is just awful. I do what I can to not think about it, but it's hard. Really hard. sigh Oh well.

What I'm trying to work on now (or maybe once I'm uncapped) is finding a good quality picture of the Kanji for the word love that looks pretty. Then off the top of my head there are 3 more words I want to find nice art of. As usual details are slim cause I don't want to alert too many people to what I want to do.

Ok just thinking about my revelations and vaguely talking about them is making me feel ill. So I'm going to try and get to sleep.

I imagine it's going to be hard =/