There are certain times after I've had one of my moments where I look back and consider that perhaps I was a bit too overdramatic. That what seemed to ring true at the time would slowly chime itself out into nothingness as I slowly realised that things weren't like that.
However sometimes things happen afterward that strike the bell once more and reaffirm past realisations of a rather unrighteous feeling.
Long story short? I've been depressed lately, but through the power of mindless work and awesome friends I've been able to maintain a positive facade. Feigning sunshine on the outside whilst inside a tumultuous battle rages on in the darkness. Now the facade I worked so hard to put up is gone again. Just like that.
At work yesterday I nearly broke down several times.
Last night I refused to go out with my friends (although they didn't end up going out in the end anyway).
Today I have cancelled plans to see Shashi's parents again.
I'm meant to be going out tonight and tomorrow, but right now I honestly don't know if I will (or can). I should since it's meant to cheer me up on some level, I just wish it'd fix everything. Even time is failing to heal these wounds.
What do I do?
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